2016年5月22日 星期日

致命傷

是的。
我們每個人都是獨一無二,
我不會去否定你的獨特,
只是到最後你得學會自已其實也沒有那麼特別。

很多愛情的死因,
不外乎過份的自信。

因為我覺得我夠特別,
所以我一定能夠改變你的,
我是上天派來拯救你的啊。
畢竟你是這樣跟我說的。

因為我夠特別,
就算是失去所有,
我也必須得到你。
畢竟已經付出了這麼多了。

因為我夠特別,
你肯定是真心喜歡我的,
就算是聽過的套路也不是套路。
畢竟我是跟他們不一樣的。

因為我夠特別,


因為我夠特別,
我最後發現最最最懂我的人,還是自已。
其實任誰的眼中,
我也沒有我以為的特別。

再特別的特別,只有那一刻你知道就好了,有些事不必利用,放在心中其實真的會更好。



2016年5月20日 星期五

That just because a relationship ends does not mean it is not a success.

Humans have tried so hard to shove the idea of love into a one-size-fits-all box, even though no one can hammer down a simple definition for the word. We want a world in which there are rules and answers, because such a world implies a kind of safety. Historically, though, nothing has ever really stayed the same, especially in terms of love. Aside from financing the entire romantic comedy industry, maintaining the notion that people are designed to only love one person at a time has led to outrageous lies, rampant divorce, and even severe violence. How is that serving anyone?

2016年5月10日 星期二

Modafinil, Paris and New boyfriend

I've been taking Modafinil for 4 days now. I don't know if it's the placebo effect, but I can feel I am working much more effective than I was. The only downside I would say is you have to be very careful with the dose, and the timing for its half-life, because I can see my sleeping being disrupted easily by this if not time right.

Flying off to Paris with Mister. Haven't seen him for a month. 

Perhaps this is why I do not feel guilty at all. I honestly don't know what this is. 

Meanwhile, Doctor and I are good together. Doing the typical campus couple stuff, enjoy the sun out there and panicking about revision at the same time. I don't feel loved either. I guess this is one of those relationships that just happened because you can't see why you shouldn't. Well, at least I am happy now. I haven't cried alone in the middle of the night for a long while.

Doctor is a very sensitive person. At some point, I am worried that he will cringe on this if he finds out one day. I might be selfish, but I really don't want to destruct someone.