2015年5月28日 星期四

MAY UPDATES


Exam time again, four out of six exam done and two more to go.

But the thought of finishing my exams doesn't excite me much, summer is coming, which means I am going home very soon, in less than a month. I don't like the thought of it.

Because I will miss Mister a lot. Just like I am now. But I am hoping the presence of my family will make me feel better. 

It is so nice to have him around for the past 4 days. His wife and kids were away, so I can finally fell asleep at night and woke up in his arms in the morning. It is an exam de-stress treat.

The most difficult part I found is always the detachment, especially after two and a half years, constantly repeating the process. I am a human, a woman, after all. The process never gets easier in time, because I feel more loved and appreciate the every single moment I had with Mister after each detachment. 

I guess I am just going to let all my emotions to purge out as they hit me tonight. It hurts but I will be fine. 

I have this feeling that I might let my parents know what is going on for these years when I get home. They are quite open up to things. But my main concern is they will worry about me, a lot. And there are nothing much they can do about me. 

Will it be a disappointment to them? Sometimes I feel like I should be more shameful for the affairs than I actually did. But Infidelity, we all know they are there, right under our nose, but we still picture the ideal, loving and caring images about marriage or family. And when the reality doesn't go quite the way we wish, whoever fails to have the 'perfect' marriage becomes a loser. What is wrong with us?

2015年5月6日 星期三

You know what you want and I don't, but that's OK because I am still young


There are so many things that I don't understand.


Why can't people just love each other as they were for the rest of their life? Things will be so much easier for us.