2015年12月18日 星期五

It's unreal. 

Since when this fantasy and my reality starts blurring out with each other? Mister is my escape, and I'm his. But it's not real if you think about it. In reality, it can't be just YOU & ME in our life, just because we make it happens like that artificially.

I had no idea the exchange of emails and texts will lead to this. It scares me now. Accepting the fact is not easy. Not only that we are not going anywhere, it's more like, neither of us will end up happy if we are together in the clear or unclear. 

It hurts me. But leaving it hurts me even more. It feels like a soul-eating poison that is damaging myself everyday.

I want to get the fuck out of it.