2015年10月26日 星期一

我有男朋友,可是我單身

前陣子看到這樣的一篇文,非常有共嗚。

現在的他連男朋友都不算,只是情人吧。我是難過的,面對如此雞肋的愛情。但完結所需要的勇氣遠大於要去承受的痛,所以只好繼續承受。

很想好好的計劃自己的假期,但永遠在這一刻才發現自己還是有另一個人去顧慮,我不想錯過了我們僅有的假期。

我沒法怪他,畢竟是我一直成全他的自私。

2015年10月20日 星期二

Not fresh anymore

Returning to uni as a 2nd year is very different. In fact, I think I'm actually having more fun and feeling more comfortable. Overall, you are settled and know how to work things round in the campus. And you have certain authority in your own circles too. 

Having your own comfort zone is great. But getting out of it is the only way to get the most out of a diverse life. It is a hard choice in between. 

I feel less depressed since the return. Getting busy really helps. I tend to have less time to think about the negatives of me and Mister. And after the 3 months of separation, I am really glad that I am back. At least I get to see him every now and then. It is great! So I am not in a position that I will complain much. 

But I still get the confusion.... 

It still hurts to think about having to end all these one day, possibly when I graduated. It is not that far, approaching with a lot of uncertainties. It scares me. And I am a worrier, but lucky that I am an optimist too.

So what will come first? Will we fall out of love first, or we will be apart first? Which is better? 

I just don't think I am capable to do all these again. 3 years mean a lot to a blooming young adult. I love him with all my hearts.