Not fresh anymore

Returning to uni as a 2nd year is very different. In fact, I think I'm actually having more fun and feeling more comfortable. Overall, you are settled and know how to work things round in the campus. And you have certain authority in your own circles too. 

Having your own comfort zone is great. But getting out of it is the only way to get the most out of a diverse life. It is a hard choice in between. 

I feel less depressed since the return. Getting busy really helps. I tend to have less time to think about the negatives of me and Mister. And after the 3 months of separation, I am really glad that I am back. At least I get to see him every now and then. It is great! So I am not in a position that I will complain much. 

But I still get the confusion.... 

It still hurts to think about having to end all these one day, possibly when I graduated. It is not that far, approaching with a lot of uncertainties. It scares me. And I am a worrier, but lucky that I am an optimist too.

So what will come first? Will we fall out of love first, or we will be apart first? Which is better? 

I just don't think I am capable to do all these again. 3 years mean a lot to a blooming young adult. I love him with all my hearts.