2014年9月25日 星期四
Something's wrong
As you notice, I've been in this mood swing lately. When I sit down in a cafe today, and really think about what is going on with me.
The thought of ending the relationship is getting stronger than ever. I can sense something is wrong, with Mister or it might just simply with me. I don't know.
Although I have always feeling insecure, I am always good at coping with them. I can always pull myself together and put up with it. But for this time, I feel like I can't handle this. I don't see why I should put myself in this anymore.
When there is a problem, you can either:
Accept it
Change it
Leave it
But I don't want leave and I can't change anything. I wish this is just another emotion cycle and I can manage to accept it as I have always done.
As I was thinking all these, I realised I have forgotten something really important. THE PILLS!
I have been taking Cerazette for the past 2 years. Recently I went back to Hong Kong for 3 weeks, so I have been on and off taking the pills. And as I come back to the UK, the routine has returned back to usual. Bare that in mind, the depression side-effects are very common in women who take this kind of contraceptive pills. The fluctuation in hormone levels can be a huge factor contributing to my recent mood swings. And that will make so much more sense now!
But of course, Mister is a big trigger....
If this is getting worse, I think I will need to cut off the pills or talk to a counsellor. I have heard that the depression can be severe from a lot of women. Wish I will get back to normal, as the hormones level is stabilised.
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