What
were you looking for?
Mister
and I were lying in bed, talking about our fantasies and now we have a new check-list
of places to have sex. Even just fantasizing about these ideas turn on both of
us. Then our conversation brought up our individual’s journey through the SA
site and what were our intentions.
We
think it’s the curiosity, or purely the boredom, or simply the desire of sex
life satisfaction (especially for him). But we both agreed on what’s happening
now is out of our expectations, nothing like what we were looking for.
For
me, I was expecting a below the average man with some sort of secret fetish,
whom I will fulfill his desire in exchange of some spare money, so I don’t have
to work so many hours in my part-time job, and focus on my study instead.
My intention is much
closed to what it is now, but I honestly was expecting something less attached.
I always have a preference on man older than me, about 6 – 12 years. Initially
I never thought that I would feel something for a man 24 years older than me,
especially a married man. And thanks to DJ, I realized it’s OK to feel
something for a man, that you are sharing strong intimacy with, even if you are
in an arrangement. It’s just the fact you wouldn't say it out loud, because the
value of an arrangement is not the feelings you have developed. It is never the
feelings that pursue an arrangement.
As
you may know, I am exclusive to Mister. I never intended to be an exclusive SB
for only one SD, but I just don’t want to do the searching in the sugar-world
again. I might if this arrangement eventually comes to an end, but before that,
I don’t want to do anything that might upset Mister who always treats me beyond
well. No matter how tempting it is out there, it’s never an excuse.
Mister,
you had no idea how many dates I have rejected for you...
xxxx
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