What were you looking for?

        What were you looking for?

        Mister and I were lying in bed, talking about our fantasies and now we have a new check-list of places to have sex. Even just fantasizing about these ideas turn on both of us. Then our conversation brought up our individual’s journey through the SA site and what were our intentions.

        We think it’s the curiosity, or purely the boredom, or simply the desire of sex life satisfaction (especially for him). But we both agreed on what’s happening now is out of our expectations, nothing like what we were looking for.

        For me, I was expecting a below the average man with some sort of secret fetish, whom I will fulfill his desire in exchange of some spare money, so I don’t have to work so many hours in my part-time job, and focus on my study instead.

My intention is much closed to what it is now, but I honestly was expecting something less attached. I always have a preference on man older than me, about 6 – 12 years. Initially I never thought that I would feel something for a man 24 years older than me, especially a married man. And thanks to DJ, I realized it’s OK to feel something for a man, that you are sharing strong intimacy with, even if you are in an arrangement. It’s just the fact you wouldn't say it out loud, because the value of an arrangement is not the feelings you have developed. It is never the feelings that pursue an arrangement.

        As you may know, I am exclusive to Mister. I never intended to be an exclusive SB for only one SD, but I just don’t want to do the searching in the sugar-world again. I might if this arrangement eventually comes to an end, but before that, I don’t want to do anything that might upset Mister who always treats me beyond well. No matter how tempting it is out there, it’s never an excuse.

        Mister, you had no idea how many dates I have rejected for you...

xxxx

All I want for Christmas...

I met Mister yesterday, and this is the last time we will see each other in 2013 :(

I got him some pistachio truffles made by me and paired them up with a bottle of Tokaji 5 Puttonyos. And that is spot on, he loves it! Nevertheless, I served them in my satin basque ;-)

I tied that ribbon!! Glad that YouTube is there.

The meeting was lovely as usual. Every time is getting better than the last time... Then we went to a Thai restaurant for dinner, as we are both starving after we have wore each other out. And go back to the hotel for more. Not sure if it's the orgasm or just simply him that makes me feel so secure and happy that I almost tear up. Possibly it's his words, I guess he is the first one in this world that encourages me all the time, so sincerely, in such a way that even my parents never did. 

'I can see that, in few years time, you will be amazing. Either designing new pharmaceutical plants or even winning the British Bake Off, you will be amazing.' I know this might sound a bit silly, but that's all I really need. That's why I keep telling him how lucky I am. It's not only that I've found a nice and generous sugardaddy, not only that I've found someone who supports me in so many ways, but someone like him that offer me things in such a gentle way. Thank you.

We both agreed that we will stick with each other for at least a while. But he said he thinks I would be the one who will change my mind first, because I'm still too young, too much things unseen. While he had seen much more and he still wants me, so it is not likely that he will change his mind... He might be right, but we will see. At least I am certain that he is one of those person who influenced me the most in my life.