What were you looking for?

        What were you looking for?

        Mister and I were lying in bed, talking about our fantasies and now we have a new check-list of places to have sex. Even just fantasizing about these ideas turn on both of us. Then our conversation brought up our individual’s journey through the SA site and what were our intentions.

        We think it’s the curiosity, or purely the boredom, or simply the desire of sex life satisfaction (especially for him). But we both agreed on what’s happening now is out of our expectations, nothing like what we were looking for.

        For me, I was expecting a below the average man with some sort of secret fetish, whom I will fulfill his desire in exchange of some spare money, so I don’t have to work so many hours in my part-time job, and focus on my study instead.

My intention is much closed to what it is now, but I honestly was expecting something less attached. I always have a preference on man older than me, about 6 – 12 years. Initially I never thought that I would feel something for a man 24 years older than me, especially a married man. And thanks to DJ, I realized it’s OK to feel something for a man, that you are sharing strong intimacy with, even if you are in an arrangement. It’s just the fact you wouldn't say it out loud, because the value of an arrangement is not the feelings you have developed. It is never the feelings that pursue an arrangement.

        As you may know, I am exclusive to Mister. I never intended to be an exclusive SB for only one SD, but I just don’t want to do the searching in the sugar-world again. I might if this arrangement eventually comes to an end, but before that, I don’t want to do anything that might upset Mister who always treats me beyond well. No matter how tempting it is out there, it’s never an excuse.

        Mister, you had no idea how many dates I have rejected for you...

xxxx

2014 will be even BETTER

I'm still amazed by how determined I am to break things off with DJ, and I am so proud that I succeed. And finally I was back on the right track that I intend to be on, achieving good exam results and have my offers now.

2014, you have to be smooth and even better. I really enjoy the calmness in the past few months, and I wish there is not going to be any storms followed by. And I do believe that life can be smooth if you truly determine to. Even though it can be less fun, but overall that's all I ask for. 

At the start of December, I made up this advent calendar game for Mister by sending him SnapChats every day till Xmas day. And he seems to enjoy it a lot, so he ask for more. Now I show him each item I brought from the Xmas sale every day, just one item with nothing else, so it can be just a scarf, a cardigan, anything. Mister gives me good reviews as well, always makes me feel flattered. 

Can't wait to see him when he's back to London...

Today's SnapChat with Mister.

Anyway, have a HAPPY NEW YEAR!

XXXXX

All I want for Christmas...

I met Mister yesterday, and this is the last time we will see each other in 2013 :(

I got him some pistachio truffles made by me and paired them up with a bottle of Tokaji 5 Puttonyos. And that is spot on, he loves it! Nevertheless, I served them in my satin basque ;-)

I tied that ribbon!! Glad that YouTube is there.

The meeting was lovely as usual. Every time is getting better than the last time... Then we went to a Thai restaurant for dinner, as we are both starving after we have wore each other out. And go back to the hotel for more. Not sure if it's the orgasm or just simply him that makes me feel so secure and happy that I almost tear up. Possibly it's his words, I guess he is the first one in this world that encourages me all the time, so sincerely, in such a way that even my parents never did. 

'I can see that, in few years time, you will be amazing. Either designing new pharmaceutical plants or even winning the British Bake Off, you will be amazing.' I know this might sound a bit silly, but that's all I really need. That's why I keep telling him how lucky I am. It's not only that I've found a nice and generous sugardaddy, not only that I've found someone who supports me in so many ways, but someone like him that offer me things in such a gentle way. Thank you.

We both agreed that we will stick with each other for at least a while. But he said he thinks I would be the one who will change my mind first, because I'm still too young, too much things unseen. While he had seen much more and he still wants me, so it is not likely that he will change his mind... He might be right, but we will see. At least I am certain that he is one of those person who influenced me the most in my life.

When a door shuts, a window opens

Even though I am relieved after the conversation with DJ, I feel a bit upset as it reminds me of the past. Exams are coming up as well, but I find it so hard to concentrate today in the library. All I can think of is DJ...

Then I got a text from Mister:

I thought it is the end of term, so I sent you some more funds. Enjoy your Christmas shopping! Xxx

That is sweet. And now I have £4000 extra to spend for this Christmas. :) :)

I feel so happy that I can almost forget what had happened during the weekend. Money always makes me feel secure. More than that, it is Mister's thoughtfulness that also counts.

It all began, at 17.

I have been in a long term SB-SD relationship for over a year now, exclusive to one SD only. (Well, most of the time)  

The Sugar-hunting starts all the way back in 2012. And now, I am still in the bowl, never left and don't intend to so far. 

Looking back, I think I am REALLY lucky. 

Comparing to other SB bloggers I came across, I am definitely not the professionals. Being a SB is mainly due to boredom in my social life initially, but at this point, I am so glad that I did. 

No denials, a mutual-beneficial relationship is about a man who is willing to offer cash and gifts to a young, pretty girl. And SEX is usually on the table. Moreover, it is not just about the money. In my case, all the SDs and POTS have really helped me to gain my own perspective so much.

The Past
At the beginning, I met my first SD. DJ 's at his late 20's and single, so it wasn't too bad as a kick-start for me. He is charming, very well-brought up, the type of person who was born with a silver spoon (shovel, actually) in his mouth. However, all these things doesn't make him a good SD. He never offered me things that I reasonably deserved. But as I said, he was very charming. And I truly enjoys spending time with him, so this relationship stayed for another 6 months, until I realised that I was in love with him. Everything ends with tears and regrets, we never talked since then.

The Present
Very soon, I met my second SD - Mister. The only man who I am with now. He is in his early 40's, married. He got the looks that you would  expect on a Sugardaddy, in a good way. He is physically fit, probably fitter than me to be honest, at least he hits the gym weekly.

From a call-girl to a Sugarbaby

He is very smart, and a great conversationalist, as well as a listener too. The key thing is? He KNOWS how to be a good Sugardaddy, he KNOWS how to lead such a relationship. Especially when I am the type of person who doesn't know how to ask for things, I am so relieved that I met a man who knows when to offer.