2024年6月20日 星期四

肯定是喜欢的

Dear H,

I like you. I really really like you.

Although little, I enjoyed the time we had. The carpool to the lake, lying on the same blanket under the sun, the asparagus bouquet that we enjoyed chopping up into salads in the kitchen.

Perhaps there were times that I wish you were mine, but the thought of that quickly spirals into fear. 

Only if I was younger, I would have make it work. 

Only if my heart has the default capacity, I would have the tools to fix you.

Only if.

Yet I have to love myself more now. There isn't really other option.

So here I am, just mesmerising the only if's. The sunshine, the saltiness of your lips and your ice-cold hands. At least we had some good times.

Like the Persian poem goes:


Even after letting go
of the last bird
I hesitate

There is something

in this empty cage

that never gets released

 


Excerpt From

Lean Against This Late Hour

Garous Abdolmalekian

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2024年6月7日 星期五

在照片還未褪色時離場

 結果都是一樣的,但早點離場省卻很多麻煩。


至少我會記得,那個明媚的下午,我們一直喝到晚上不願回家,我忍不住親了你一下,第二天早上還得應付AUDIT。還有那午後HOLLAND PARK的陽光和草地,廚房的約會,然而這些只是我想談戀愛的証據,我跟我的前任和前前任都有過類似的高光時刻,但不代表他們深愛著我,或者適合我,我只是喜歡浪漫,在特定的情況下,喜歡某些人的陪伴而已,不過如此。

2024年5月29日 星期三

原来一个人有钱就会过得很爽

自从分手以后,这年过得巨爽,该吃吃该喝喝,该旅游旅游。

虽然工作压力也越来越大,但是心态OK,偶然有崩溃的时候,但解决了以后也没啥。

开心过日子,生活很丰盈,也就没有约会,反正看谁都看不上,男人觉得自己拿得出手的,我都可以,不比较就没有伤害,情绪价值也没有比亲闺蜜强,还不如自己跟Bailey玩开心。

当然偶然会有人闯进自己的生活,有趣的可能会有交集,但每每就想不明白,为什么要谈恋爱,我完全不想费劲去跟别人磨合,生活已经很累了,为什么我不能用我最大能力给与自己最舒服的体验?

今年想继续当个小太阳,好好经营公司,适当玩乐,保护好爱的人,祝你旅途愉快!

原来被爱的人伤害过不是那么容易治愈好

曾经我也是那个傻姑娘,我很喜欢一个人,但是他却只想着怎么去蛊惑人心,把自己的利益最大化。

我有一段时间都以为是自己的错,是自己不够好,所以才不值得被爱,不值得幸福,后来才发现那是他不断暗示我潜意识的结论。他是个操控人心的心理变态

2023年11月5日 星期日

Single Mom by Choice

 "Why doesn't Evelyn have a dad? Everyone has a dad," my 5-year-old daughter's friend blurted out innocently as she looked around our home, taking stock of the toy collection in the corner. It was her first time over for a play date, and I wasn't expecting this question to pop up within the first 10 minutes of her arrival.

Before I had time to consider my response, my daughter answered, "My mommy is my only parent because she really wanted me!" Her friend shrugged her shoulders, accepting this answer, and the girls bounced off to play.

2023年9月30日 星期六

都已成年不拖不欠

 成年人有过交集以后,要做到不拖不欠实在太难了,唯有少一点跟别人结缘,两袖清风潇潇洒洒。